Solitary Journey

The moment I boarded the bus today after work, I went straight to the upper deck and saw it was empty except me. Great. This is what I need.

Chose the 'front-est' seat, plugged in my earphones and tuned to my favourite hitz.

What a harddddddd day to overcome my emotions when I saw the girls in my ward with their new uniform.
Don't understand why this particular girl can't be slightly more sensitive.. when we were in the tea room, just so nice of her to bring up, "Hey you all going for the graduation? I don't know wanna go not. Must collect the gown by end of this month!" The rest started replying "yess of course going uh" in unison.

:(
Ouch. I wouldn't say I'm jealous. Not a tinge. I bet on my .. hair? ( Hair is a very impt factor okay!)
Just plain disappointments disappointments and more disappointments.
Why me...?

Perhaps there's a reason why my route in life had turned out this way, but I hope it won't be a vain.. But I know I have to work extra hard in it too. U reap what U sow isn't it?

If backdated to 9th December the first day of Prcp, I am where I am right now, will things turn out differently?

It sucks to sound like a downright saddo, like a loser. But I just couldn't help it but to dwell upon it.. Come on, its not a overnight thing that I can get over. It's like U won a million lottery in the end U found out U lost the ticket bet. U need time to get over.

TIME.
I guess time is the answer to all mystery right now. I wonder how my story is gonna be like..

Tried sooo hard to fight those tears.. I almost did. Talked myself thru over and over again in my mind, in my heart.
R just have to call and asked why am I so down, so off moood.
That's why I couldn't fight those silly tears any longer..
Grrr...

But then again thru this solitary journey back home, I walked under the drizzle, the bus rode in the rain. I thought I had to walk home under the rain again.. But when it reached my estate, it was bright and sunny instead..

Time.. will eventually tell everything.
It is not always a stormy weather. There will always be sunshine after rain. Even if the rain came a bit longer than your heart could take, learn to dance in the rain..
*pat on my own shoulder*

I'm gonna pull thru'...